Forecast: Brain Fog

It's Sunday night, I'm sitting in my bed planning everything I want to do starting tomorrow. "Alright, I'm going to wake up early, stay awake all day, apply for jobs, catch up on my bible reading, and work out. I got this!" It's Monday evening, almost twenty-four hours later and I only dinner and bringing the trash bin in.

As I struggle with mental health, I tend to have days where my anxiety is really high, or I'm really low due to depression. Some days, just like today, I'll suddenly have a brain fog. I'm sure brain fog works differently for each person, but for me, brain fog affects me by making me zone out, unable to focus on certain things, and feel emotionally low. Luckily, I don't have a lot of days where I have brain fogs, but unluckily, today is that day.

I'm not really sure what exactly makes a brain fog appear, but it's certainly a pain when I have a lot to do. I'll be laying in bed, trying to tell myself, 'get up, you have things to do', 'you can't keep sleeping in and avoiding plans'. While I'm thinking that, it's as if the brain fog slowly fogs up my mental pep talk and making the thoughts gently float away. In the end, I just feel lazy and disappointed in myself for not getting anything I plan done, but I can't dwell on it forever.

So I didn't get a lot I wanted to do done today. So I mostly stayed in bed sleeping. I have to keep reminding myself that it's ok. I may have not gotten everything I wanted done today, but I did some stuff I should be proud of myself for doing. I had a healthy breakfast, I brought the trash bin in even though my brain fog and lack of energy thought otherwise. I did the dishes and cooked a yummy dish I never cooked before. I guess what I'm saying is, if you're struggling with brain fog at the moment, or have had it in the past, don't let it get to you to the point where you blame yourself. Don't beat yourself up if you didn't do everything you wanted to do today. Brain fog is the worst, it's a pain in the butt, but don't throw yourself under the bus.

There's always tomorrow to get it done. As I tell you this, in a way, I'm telling myself that. The new year just started, so it's alright to not have everything you wanted completed done right this second. Honestly, this brain fog was making it difficult for me to even get a blog posted. I know this may not be my best work, but at the end of the day, my blog is part of a journal. So here's me sending you a big hug if you're struggling with brain fog. You're going to be ok, just take care of yourself, because this too shall pass, and you can bounce back from this. 

*Photo by Danis Lou on Unsplash