Lets Talk About It

Note: The topic I'll be speaking about today is suicide. I don't get into graphic details or show photos, but if the topic of suicide makes you uncomfortable, then please do not read. Thank you.

Hello readers. So I was back and forth on what exactly I wanted to blog about. I want my blog to be a safe space for readers to get inspired and learn more about who I am, but not everything about it is all positivty and happiness; same with our world. Just because I discuss on darker topics, it doesn't mean I'm not a positive person, but because I want to educate as well as share some dark moments in my life that can help others.

If you've seen around social media, the topic of suicide has been brought up a lot this week. I
won't go into the details because:
-It's been talked about so much that I'm pretty sure many people know the details
-I don't want to give the person that made this topic talked about attention because he truly does not deserve it.

Even though there has been a lot of talk about suicide, I want to discuss the topic because it's important. A person's life is important, the stigma around it needs to be discussed, and we just need to be more aware. Now, before I get into the facts and numbers about suicide, I want to share with you all personal stories about me that relate to this topic. Once we get through that, then I'll bring up facts, numbers, and statistics.

In my life, I dealt with the thought of suicide in two different years: in 2014 and 2016. If you've read many of my blog posts, you're aware these years are discussed a lot because I was dealing with two horrible breakups. We won't be going into the technicalities of that though. During those times, I went through having so many suicidal thoughts. Just to be transparent, I never attempted suicide, only thought about it. I can honestly say dealing with the darkest times in your life and thinking about killing yourself is the scariest moments I've ever had to go to.

I was already going through a hard time in both those years, but just being alone with my thoughts, hearing negative voices tell me 'Just kill yourself, there's no point living', or, 'You'd be much happier if you were dead', it was hell. There were even nights where I begged for death; it was that bad. Suicide isn't a joke, it's not something to laugh about or exploit. It's scary, it's the worst moments you can have in your life, and I would never, ever, wish that feeling on anyone.

Now, onto the facts. According to Stephanie Pappas, a contributor on Live Science (2017), she states that 1 million adults in the United States make a report when it comes to suicide attempts (Pappas, 2017). She also goes on to state that in 2015, suicide was was found as the "...second leading cause of death in people 15 to 34 years of age and third leading cause of death in children aged 10 to 14" (Pappas, 2017). Just reading and knowing these facts is scary.

So now that we're aware of some facts about suicide, what can we do to stop it? My first suggestion may not be realistic, but it could help. Just be aware of the feelings of your friends, family members, neighbors, even strangers online. If they bring up wanting to end their life, are struggling to see the next day, anything, please be there for them and help them. As I stated, I know that may not be realistic, but when I had friends reach out to me and give me encouragement and were there for me when I was in my lowest moments, or when I brought up wanting to end my life, it meant so much to me that they reached out. Don't see it as a phase, don't shrug it off, this is someone's life, and every life is important.

If you're struggling with anything and unable to continue, please get the necessary help needed for you. You can call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255. If you have phone phobia, like I do, you can always chat with someone online at the Lifeline Crisis Chat, linked here, to type to someone. You can also text 741741, which is the Crisis Text Line, to text a trained crisis counselor 24/7. If these options are still scary for you, you can even shoot me a message or tweet me on Twitter if you need to talk to someone. I don't care what I'm doing or how I'm feeling, I will honestly drop it to help you out because we should all have someone that cares about us in our darkest moments.

At the bottom of my post, I'm going to link several places you can donate to when it comes to suicide prevention. It would be awesome if you could donate, but if you're low on funds, spread the word, share my blog that has the links so others can donate. As I've stated before, suicide isn't a laughing matter, it isn't something to profit off of, and it's not some joke to tell someone to do. I've been in that mindset, and it's scary. If you can take anything from this, please know that you're an amazing person, I'm sorry for what struggles you're going through, I may not know you, but I care about you, and your life is so precious. Ending your life is not the way to solve all your problems. I love you, I care about you, and I hope I was able to help in some way, whether it's bringing awareness, sharing my story, or letting you know, honestly and truthfully, that I care.

You can comment below if you have any questions, share your thoughts, or comment words of encouragement. We could all use that. I'm sorry this was more of a darker subject, but it needs to be discussed. Thank you so much for reading, and I'll talk to you all on Monday.

Donation Links
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
American Foundation for Suicide Prevention
The Trevor Project

Pappas, S. (2017, August 10). Suicide: Statistics, Warning Signs and Prevention. Retrieved from https://www.livescience.com/44615-suicide-help.html

*Photo by Paul Garaizar on Unsplash