It's Okay Not to Be Okay

Hello readers. So there’s been a lot of emotions I’ve been dealing with the past two or so weeks. Honestly, something I discussed with my therapist last week inspired this blog post. I’m not sure if this will be a super detailed post or just a quickie, but regardless, I’m sure what I’ll be talking about will be a good reminder not only for a reader, but for myself.

So the past few weeks, there has been many days I’ve been feeling really good! Been taking a lot of time to take care of myself and loving myself. I truly believe due to self-care and self-love, I’ve been in a better mood. I’ve been really active, getting goals or tasks done, and just feeling good overall. Even though I’ll have a few good days of happiness, something suddenly happens and my mood does a 180 turn.

Maybe I’ll be in my head too much, something is triggered, or my expectations aren’t met. When that happens, my great mood suddenly goes south and I go back into this awful headspace. I start crying, breaking down, thinking negative thoughts, and isolating myself from others. Once that happens, it can be tough to get back into the good mood. So what are we suppose to do when those moments happen?

Last week, I spoke to my therapist and told her about this. I’ve been seeing my therapist for two months now, and I honestly thank her for all the amazing work she’s done for me. When we last spoke, I remember discussing with her in our session how I’ll feel good a few days, then something happens and my mood spirals down. I remember telling her, “I hate how I’ll feel great for a few days, then something happens and I get back into a depressed mode.” When I said that, it was me expressing to her how I don’t believe I’m improving.

Although I felt that way, my therapist told me something that reminded me that my thought was wrong. She said, “It’s okay to have those bad days. You need those good days because during your bad days, you know that it’s only temporary, and you have hope knowing those good days will come again.” Since she told me that, I try to remind myself all the time on how my bad days are just temporary. This won’t last forever because there has been days before where I felt happy.

If there’s anything I want you to take out of this: you don’t always have to be happy. It’s okay to not feel your best. During your bad times, remind yourself that this too shall pass, take time to take care of yourself, and just know that you’ll feel happy again. You haven’t failed yourself if you have a bad day or suddenly get in a bad headspace. We will overcome those bad days and good days will return again! Just take time to take care of yourself, whether it’s doing something you enjoy, accomplishing that task you’ve been wanting to do, or whatever it may be.

I know my post is on the short side, but it’s something I’ve had on my mind for a while and have been wanting to talk about. Take care of yourself, and remember that you will overcome this pain. As always, thank you so much for reading, commenting, liking, sharing, and subscribing.