A Letter To Me

Hello readers! As you may, or may not, know, last Thursday (the 26th) was my birthday! I turned the big 27, meaning I'm another step closer to being 30. I know I'm not one to complain about my age, but as I get older, it makes me realize everything I have, or haven't done yet. I feel like just yesterday I was 17 years old. There I am in high school, dreading school work, spending hours online on an anime forum (don't judge me), and doing theater work for my drama club. Now here I am, at age 27, still trying to figure my life out.

I was actually planning on making this post about a month ago, but life got in the way, so I was never able to complete it. I mentioned it briefly in my "All About Self-Reflection" post. Recently, I've been listening to Kate Snowise's "Here to Thrive" podcast. She talks about a topic relating to self-care, self-love, and just so much positivity, so if you get the chance, I highly recommend checking out her work. In one of the podcasts I was listening to, she spoke about writing a letter to our younger self. It really inspired me to not only write a letter to my younger self, but I think a letter to my future self. With that all said, let's get to it!

To my Younger Self

Dear Younger Me,

Hey, it's you ten years later. How's it going? Okay, yes it is kind of weird having to read a letter from you in the future. Although this may be weird, I got a lot to say to you! Your life, from here on, will truly be...for a lack of a better term, a roller coaster. You will go through many ups, but also many downs. You will deal with pain, heartbreak (more than once), mental struggles, and family issues, but you will also go through amazing things. You will graduate from college, however, I do recommend you stick with one major so you can save future you some stress.

You will fall in love. Three will break your heart, and it'll hurt, but the best love of all you'll have: the one with yourself. Know your worth. Don't let society, the people around you, or the ones you care for, affect the love you have for yourself. The journey to self-love will be the best thing you've ever done. Don't give your heart away so easily. I know you want to find that happiness and be with a significant other, but you're important, your heart is important, and I know you have so much love to give, but treasure it and do not give it away so easily.

Because I know you'll be going through many, many hardships, I have to ask you to be strong. Some scary stuff will happen in your family dynamic, you'll struggle with money and loans, and you'll have people, friends or strangers, try to hurt you. You'll also feel...depressed. You'll feel anxious, worried, and scared. It won't go away so easily, and you'll be fighting with negative voices. You can fight those voices, you can overcome, and you will win. I know it's scary to think about, and it's not what you're used to, but I have faith in you that you will overcome this. 

You'll make brand new memories. You'll do so much you never, in your dreams, imagined you could do alone. You'll experience the college life, riding the train (and airplane) solo, living alone, working retail (and office work), and so much more. I know you may not understand it now, but I am so proud of you and who you're becoming. We both still a work in progress, but I believe in you. As I said, you'll go through many ups and downs, but you're amazing and I am happy to be you.


To Me in the Future

Dear...let's say me ten or so years from now,

I know we've never met, but I have so many questions and so many things I want to tell you!  I guess the first question I want to ask is are you still a blogger? I certainly hope so, and I also hope your words have been able to reach out and help people who need to hear it! Did we ever attend grad school and obtain that Master's? You'd be an awesome counselor, whether it's with relationships or mental health. I know how much we just want to help people so much, so I certainly hope you made that dream come true. Did you ever find love? I know we don't need anyone but ourselves, but I hope you found someone who loves you, appreciates you, and never wants to lose you because you deserve that.

I hope that you have been able to love yourself so much more. As we've gotten older, I hope that you have been able to appreciate you and know that you're amazing and the best. I know that we've been through a lot, and it's been...such an exhausting battle. We've been through the pain, heartbreaks, mental struggles, you name it. I hope that ten years from now, we've overcome many of those battles. I hope you were able to find that happiness within yourself! 

Although we have a long way to go until we meet, I really hope things have gotten better for us. We've been through hell and back, but I'm hoping nothing but the best. I will continue to do better, improve myself, and be the best be I can be, so our future will have the best outcome. It'll be tough, and this battle isn't over, but I'll fight and work hard for our future.

In the comments below, what's one thing you'd tell yourself ten years ago? What's one thing you'd like to tell ten years into the future you? Let me know! As always, thank you so much for reading, commenting, sharing, and subscribing!